....reminescene

14th August 2011

Been doing a lot of reminiscing, viewing old video clips of UVERworld's, reading my stockd-up mangas that i usually collect n chuck it sumwhere in my lappy.. *sigh~* me being idle, I check up on UVERworld's happening n stumbled upon the Gold numbr...totally captivated by Shintaro's skill (n looks) \(>u<)/ kyaaaaa~

I was thoroughly captivated throughout the whole show...d adrenaline rush, totally euphoric...*pant, pant...*

...a Bitter realization

I’m feeling quite melancholic for no reason today and added to the fact that imouto had added one more reminder that my…relationship (I guess you can call a one-sided interest a somewhat distorted relationship) with Danna-dearest was quite superficial... it’s laughable, really since I’m the one that asked him out.*bitter laugh~* It happened during the middle of the second semester… He had comforted me when I was at my breaking point and helped me settle-up a feud between me and my housemates (←one of the causes of my break down). I was quite smitten by this side of him, but he had said once that he has facades, is this one of it?

When I made a confession, he had dawdled until to the end of that particular semester. I know I can’t win against the object of his forever obsession (je) and I don’t particularly fit his desired traits for his ideal lady-friend. He had asked me out one night, saying that we need to talk it out… I’ve ended spilling out the beans about my unpleasant ‘encounter’ with my former classmate…since the thing he had asked as to consummate the joining was a kiss, plus the kind of relationship he wants involves lot of physical assurances…flashbacks are definite… he had made me questioned my decision on making him my q]s. Considering I’m quite traditional, it’ll be quite hard to make this relationship work. I know he’s restraining himself quite well; considering he’s a healthy, hormonal 20-year old male being, but how long he can keep it up, he’ll break, eventually and that kind of future prospect scares me… In the end (being in denial), I concede the fact that this infatuation is something fleeting and shallow, I am green-by-the-horn when it comes to love anyway… I bid him goodbye and eventually, thing goes as if nothing had happened; I had never made that confession, we never meet up that night, I never did cry in front of him, he never did comfort me, a clean slate to start again. (This is when being detached is considered to be a blessing)

It’s time to clear out the old deck to start shuffling a new one.

Later on the start of this semester, he had proven my decision to back out to be somewhat the right thing to do since he had been prowling around the proverbial field searching for a girlfriend. I could only watch, finding it amusing, to say the least –added with the tinge of empathy in it, watching him jumping headlong first to any opportunity to date anyone of that matched his preference.

If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, it’s a good thing then. But if they didn’t, it was never meant to be…

..my Birthday~

so sorry, been in a looooooooooooooooooooooooooong hiatus.. 

anyway, with the fasting month coming, i thought me b'day dis year, is gonna be a bit subdued n ala-ala kadar je... But, whew boy, am i wrong..  i celebrated my b'day even b4 d day started, thanks to my sisters dat I come to know n love..they've treated me wit something special, a small birthday party..

my slice of Chocolate Strawberry

I've received many warm b'day greetings from my classmates (they even collectively sing a b'day song for me >u<)... My Approach n Methods in TESL lecturer even personally wishd me HB! All n all, it's a very good day (in my standard at least) except for a fact dat d one person I most hope to get a greeting from, he didn't even realized it's my b'day...a downrite bummer..

made this in undr 15 minutes (a new record)

...but othr than that, i've been really happy. i made this to tag my b'day wishers in FB...

Re:make 【ONE OK ROCK】

It’s official; I’m hooked to One OK Rock. I first heard of them in JpopAsia.com and decided to check them out. It turns out they are good, super-effing good!! They’re good with both ballads and upbeat numbers… Can't wait for their new album release!